Am I too cool for school??

Well...that use to be my thinking. I'm not a fan of school. It's not hard or anything like that....I just get so bored with it. I'm not ADD or anything, lol...I just never cared.



Well, things change.



After talking with my sister for a while about going to college I've taken the first big steps to apply for enrollment and financial aid. Here I am, about 10 years after highschool FINALLY trying to go back to school. My cousin Brian did it and totally changed his life. Why cant I??? I CAN.....well......thats the plan. Tami is going back too....so I figure now is a good time for me as well. At least I dont have to go it alone. I have to thank my sister (neuroticly yours) for the inspiration.


Now if I could just find a decent job.

Time to cool off....

Yeah...I needed about a day to cool off. Sorry to the people who read that....I probably gave off the totaly wrong impression. Yet ANOTHER thing about me is my fear of losing or failure. Ask my sister (neuroticly yours) I'm the most competitive person on the planet....I HATE LOSING!! At this point I feel like I'm losing in the game of life.....so what happens?? Naturally I get VERY PISSED!! But after I cool off I have to sit back and take responsability for it...I can do anything I want and I know it!! The problem I encounter is deciding WHAT it is I want to do. I have SO MANY things I love to do.......How can I make a good living out of one of them??

Thanks for the kind words yall!! I'll make it!!!

OMFG!!!

You know??? I'm really fucking pissed at how my shitty fucking life has turned out...I'm nothing like I though I would be 10 years ago....I'm a fucking bum. All I have to my pathetic name is a god damn pile of fucking god damn fucking debt!! I hate my god damn life...seriously.....I'm so fucking over this shit..Whats the fucking point....we all die and nothing good comes of it...fuck this dumb shit....I feel like god has played some fucking huge joke on me. Fucking rediculous. Jesus fucking christ. All I am is a fucking burden on everybody. I feel so bad for my family. I have ABSOLUTELY NOTHING GOING FOR ME!! NOTHING!!!

I've Got The Spirit!!

THE SPIRIT OF THE WILD!!! One of my favorite songs and one of my fav. huntin' shows on OLN. Singer of the song?? TED NUGENT!! Host of the show?? You guessed it...TED NUGENT BABY!!! One of my heros! His political views and way of life are what he calls "the american dream" and I have to agree.

I'm hittin' the woods again this weekend but it's not all fun...I have to get some work done up there but it beats the hell out of the city. I would take my nephew this time if I could but my brother (fitness jay) invited his best friend instead. That makes 4 including my dad and that's the most we can handle up there at one time right now...but we're workin' on it. Another good weekend of working outside in between chasing porkchops through the woods with the sharp sticks....is there anything better?

Backstrap Fever!!

Yeah baby......Just got this pic. Me, my brother, my dad and my cousin went bow huntin' at the property we share up in north florida last weekend. My brother and I shot some really nice meat hogs. It was an awesome day on saturday. It was overcast with some light rain....perfect for super quiet movement. I shot the hog above at about 30 yards with my bow that afternoon. This is my therapy...I wish everybody could feel as good as I do when I'm in the woods. I forget everything. It's freedom......It's the american dream baby!!

HOLY CRAP BALLS!!!

GO SEE THE DARK KNIGHT NOW!!! I just got back from the first showing at midnight. Over 5 theaters were sold out at the one location I went to!! It was amazing..There are no words...This movie is awesome..even if you're not a batman fan you will enjoy it!! Go see it now!!

I'M AN IDIOT!!!!

Thanks to all of you who have commented on my blog...I really appreciate it!! Now....on with the show...

As mentioned before...I'm a very avid poker player....For the last few days I've managed to win about 600 bucks in profit in about 2 days of playing poker. Well......Yesterday I decided to jump to a high stakes table and tried my hand at $5-$10 no limit. What that means is it cost at least $10 to see a flop and the minimum bet is $10, and you can put all your money in at any time! I got a little loose and lost all of my profit and then some in a matter of hours. To say the least it was a dumb decision and I played VERY badly. I'm gonna take a LONG break from poker and I'll stick to the games I make money at, $1-$2 no limit and $2-$5 no limit. DAMN I'M AN IDIOT!!

I'm sure I'm not the only one.

I'm of the firm belief that money buys happiness. I'm sure I'm not the only one. I'm the kind of person that says "PROVE IT" to the people who say it doesn't. I'm at the point in my life where all I really want is money. All of my problems are because of money. Since I've never had a lot of money I'm willing to be the one to prove to everyone that money does buy happiness. I cant stand all these ritch assholes with all the money in the world whinning about the dumbest things. They piss and moan all day and have the greatest resource known to man at their fingertips. Then to add to their problem they get all drugged up, do something stupid, become celebrities get more money, do more drugs and get more miserable. What a crappy society we live in......Anyway. I still say prove it.......Give me a few million dollars....HELL give me a few hundred thousand dollars and you watch how my life changes!!! For the better!!! I have big plans if I ever get that lucky.

OMG I can't believe I'm doin' this.

Well holy crap......I cant believe my sister (Neurotically yours) and my younger brother (Fitness Jay) had a blog before me.....I told my sister I though these were stupid. I said "I have a myspace....Thats good enough". I guess it aint...lol. I dunno how often I'll keep up with this.....Probably more often for now since I have too much damn time on my hands. Let the rants and nuttyness begin!!!